So for awhile now I have been a little too obsessed with gaming. I used to have a pretty bad one back in my high school years but managed to go cold turkey when I started University. Unfortunately it has returned and I've gotten a bit too obsessed with it.
I honestly hate playing MMOs because I can't seem to find a balance when I play and I hate how it gives me a false sense of accomplishment. I end of feeling guilty at the end when I do manage to drag myself away to head to sleep.
I turn into this really cranky and snappy person and I don't like it at all. D=
I am usually pretty mellow and patient so I'm pretty mad at myself for even being tempted back into playing.
(Also directing my anger to those that got me into it, cause you all knew I had a problem before. *shakes fist)
Anyway I've started to get a bit of control over playing AA and am trying to not log on today.
FF14 I just recently got into the pay to play which I will be taking a break from it in a few weeks because I'm not really into the game. I bought the game out of anger because a person whom I assumed was a friend wasn't really one at all. She just wanted me to play for her own benefit. On top of that I saw something completely ugly about her. She is blunt, cold, selfish, lacks respect and has an unpleasant habit of insulting people. (example, sends links to definition of words as if presuming you are dumb or link to articles to prove your beliefs are wrong. just completely insulting and rude.)
These ugly qualities I had noticed earlier on but due to my stubbornness to see the good in people I ignored it until it hit me right in the face.
To put it simply I lost my patience/tolerance/trust. She wasn't someone I wanted to have as a long term friend so I cut her out - Deleted.
It frustrates me that I even bothered trying. I had compared her to one of my rl friend that started out rocky but we ended up being good friends.
I made an error in judgment trying to compare her with my rl friend. Looking closely they may have had some similarities but my friend has a conscious and the online one... didn't really have one.
To those that find friends online or rl if your gut feeling tells you they're not friend worthy you are most likely 100% right. Don't second guess yourself!